COMFORTZONE AND ITS REALITY.

It is said that if we want to achieve something we have to go out of our comfort zone - but as I see it, the real challenge isn't to go out of it. The challenge is to deal with all the emotions and old memories which come up.

What I experienced was that as soon as I did something which was really different from what I usually did, it started to fulfill me with positive energy. However, at the same time it became somewhat difficult to reach my goals because there were so many upcoming thoughts.

I started to question myself instead of believing and trusting myself.

That was actually the most major bit, I stopped believing in myself because I was questioning:

What if it's not meant to be? 

What if it's not what I had to do? 

Why is it so hard?

All this are questions which come up and have to be dealt with. Well, I for one know that we have to, or specifically I have to deal with them in a healthy way. That means these questions can be used to push me forward. Maybe it’s like this quote: "The moment when you decide to quit is actually the moment were great things are going to happen"

I'm sure that's s right to a certain point, but when exactly do you know that you were able to quit? When do you know it?

I'm a young lady which actually knows exactly what she wants. I know where I want to go but sometimes it is hard to be disciplined which means to deal and fight against my fears day by. It sometimes feels like I go one step forward and two back I while I really want to make it, really want to reach my goals but the efforts I'm making seem to not be sufficient. I'm really criticizing myself for not being able to do more than I could.

The only chance to succeed is to be patient, to be organized and to never forget, that if you really want something you're able to reach it. We're living in a world where nothing is impossible and where nothing is limited. We are full of life and so is the world. It's up to us to integrate all this beauty and all this magic into our bodies, souls and minds. By that, we will be able to actually reach our goals without any doubts.

Wish y'all a happy "sun" day.

Leila Rose

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Hi darling

Right now it's a very intense time for me. I'm learning much about me and through others and I get inspired by many people and I really want to share with you what inspires me and what effect it has to me.

Well first of all I have to tell you that, I have been suffering under not "loving- myself" issues I have always seen myself as a victim in a way and also I couldn't accept myself the way I am. I have been scared of things which didn't happen yet and I really wanted to change that. 

Regarding my future I know how important it is to create my personal  idol. 

If I love myself and see myself as my personal Idol I will be successful in whatever I do and even if I don't reach a goal I were thinking I had to -  all those challanges actually are lessons.

It doesn't mean that I'm not successful, that I'm not self loving, it just means that sometimes things happen to us and we have to deal with them so that they bring us to a different point of view of things we fear the most. 

Quote: "the things we fear the most already happend to us".

That's a quote I read lately and it made me reflect about my whole situation so I started to realize that it's true the fear I am having already happened to me.

 I went through a similar situation so that's why I'm scared because I don't want to go through it again.

 But I started to realize, if you learned your lesson while you were living this fear the first time it wont come again - you won't go through the same difficult time again. Because you changed, you ain't the same person you have been before, if that makes sense.  And that's the difference we have to make when we're learing our lessons. 

I could go on and on and on with these kind of talks but I really have to make a point but I promise I will get back to it and write another chapter about my thoughts I wish you all a lovely night or a lovely start today!

 Be positive and no matter how lonely you feel. No matter how big your fear is or whatever you thinking you're unable to solve - you are never alone - you are with yourself and that partner is the best you will ever gain.

Love, Leila Rose

(Today I'm in Hamburg,germany)