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Hi darling

Right now it's a very intense time for me. I'm learning much about me and through others and I get inspired by many people and I really want to share with you what inspires me and what effect it has to me.

Well first of all I have to tell you that, I have been suffering under not "loving- myself" issues I have always seen myself as a victim in a way and also I couldn't accept myself the way I am. I have been scared of things which didn't happen yet and I really wanted to change that. 

Regarding my future I know how important it is to create my personal  idol. 

If I love myself and see myself as my personal Idol I will be successful in whatever I do and even if I don't reach a goal I were thinking I had to -  all those challanges actually are lessons.

It doesn't mean that I'm not successful, that I'm not self loving, it just means that sometimes things happen to us and we have to deal with them so that they bring us to a different point of view of things we fear the most. 

Quote: "the things we fear the most already happend to us".

That's a quote I read lately and it made me reflect about my whole situation so I started to realize that it's true the fear I am having already happened to me.

 I went through a similar situation so that's why I'm scared because I don't want to go through it again.

 But I started to realize, if you learned your lesson while you were living this fear the first time it wont come again - you won't go through the same difficult time again. Because you changed, you ain't the same person you have been before, if that makes sense.  And that's the difference we have to make when we're learing our lessons. 

I could go on and on and on with these kind of talks but I really have to make a point but I promise I will get back to it and write another chapter about my thoughts I wish you all a lovely night or a lovely start today!

 Be positive and no matter how lonely you feel. No matter how big your fear is or whatever you thinking you're unable to solve - you are never alone - you are with yourself and that partner is the best you will ever gain.

Love, Leila Rose

(Today I'm in Hamburg,germany)